Sometimes I feel myself like stupid..
Although we get together for three years ed,
but why I still feel like I'm chasing over him,
trying to catch his attention,
grab his heart..
Am I?
Feels like we are not on date
but I'm working very hard to grab his mind,
grab his heart..
I just wish to get his little attention everyday..
He will never know how it feels like..
It's like hell.. tearing my heart apart..
When you loves someone so much,
missing him so much..
But he doesn't miss you at all.
He wants you to be independent,
to face the problems on you own.
Then why he is here?
Support? or watching you far away?
Loving you without action? or loving in mind? or in heart?
sincerely? faithfully?
or he is keeping all his love in his heart,
unknown, unseen, unheard..unpredictable..
So close to me but his heart is so far..
Unpredictable, unreachable.. at an infinite place..
May be this is my fault,
to give up someone who loves me so much..
and chasing towards someone I love...
But I have no doubt..
really really love him.
Cook for him,
wake him up,
clean his house,
quarrel with him
n again n again forgiving him without his sorry,
makes call to him although he don't,
signing for his attendance
although I'm so mad with his attitude,
Staying back to study with him
although I know that's not the best way
to cure his laziness nor to help him,
but praying hard that he will aware of that one day
and work hard for his studies,
But..
when the days will come?
When will him aware that I'm always there for him?
Yes, I know I will do everything for him, but did he appreciate that?
The way he treat me.. the way he is always right, I'm tired of it sometimes..
Sometimes really cant feel whether he does cares all about me...
or perhaps concern anything about me?
I need assurance,
sense of assurance
that he will alw be there for me
sense of belonging,
that I belongs to him..
So excited I'm each time I received his call,
even though just a minute..
Is that how men behave?
to keep their love in heart?
What is the ranking of me in his heart?
1, 2,3, 4....or which place??
I'm sure I'm not the first..
But at least can I be the second?
Is this how the urban are thought?
or this is the urban culture?
I don't know,
I just know that
I love you,
sincerely,
faithfully.
Although we get together for three years ed,
but why I still feel like I'm chasing over him,
trying to catch his attention,
grab his heart..
Am I?
Feels like we are not on date
but I'm working very hard to grab his mind,
grab his heart..
I just wish to get his little attention everyday..
He will never know how it feels like..
It's like hell.. tearing my heart apart..
When you loves someone so much,
missing him so much..
But he doesn't miss you at all.
He wants you to be independent,
to face the problems on you own.
Then why he is here?
Support? or watching you far away?
Loving you without action? or loving in mind? or in heart?
sincerely? faithfully?
or he is keeping all his love in his heart,
unknown, unseen, unheard..unpredictable..
So close to me but his heart is so far..
Unpredictable, unreachable.. at an infinite place..
May be this is my fault,
to give up someone who loves me so much..
and chasing towards someone I love...
But I have no doubt..
really really love him.
Cook for him,
wake him up,
clean his house,
quarrel with him
n again n again forgiving him without his sorry,
makes call to him although he don't,
signing for his attendance
although I'm so mad with his attitude,
Staying back to study with him
although I know that's not the best way
to cure his laziness nor to help him,
but praying hard that he will aware of that one day
and work hard for his studies,
But..
when the days will come?
When will him aware that I'm always there for him?
Yes, I know I will do everything for him, but did he appreciate that?
The way he treat me.. the way he is always right, I'm tired of it sometimes..
Sometimes really cant feel whether he does cares all about me...
or perhaps concern anything about me?
I need assurance,
sense of assurance
that he will alw be there for me
sense of belonging,
that I belongs to him..
So excited I'm each time I received his call,
even though just a minute..
Is that how men behave?
to keep their love in heart?
What is the ranking of me in his heart?
1, 2,3, 4....or which place??
I'm sure I'm not the first..
But at least can I be the second?
Is this how the urban are thought?
or this is the urban culture?
I don't know,
I just know that
I love you,
sincerely,
faithfully.
